Bride Avoids Mirrors For The Entire Year Before Her Wedding


Losing weight for the wedding, manicures, facials — all common parts to a bridal beauty regimen. But Kjerstin Gruys, 29, used her wedding as an excuse to focus on beautifying herself from the inside — by not looking in the mirror at herself for a full year. The idea came to her after having tried on wedding dresses for the first time.

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“I thought I was going to find a dress that somehow fulfilled every dream, and that I’d enjoy the process of shopping for dresses, I’d feel my most beautiful. I’d find this perfect dress that complimented my body.”

But instead, Gruys says dress shopping was a source of stress.

“I saw myself in the mirror and was being critical,” she says. “I thought, Well, maybe I should lose a little weight before the wedding, always a bad thing to focus on when you have a history of an eating disorder…. I wasn’t afraid of relapsing into my eating disorder, but I felt like a hypocrite because of how far I’d come.”

Even on her wedding day, Gruys didn’t look in a mirror.


“Bridesmaids scurried to shield the mirrors from her view. Fittingly, she and Ackermann’s first dance was to a song called “I’ll Be Your Mirror.” The lyrics included “I find it hard to believe you don’t know/The beauty that you are.”

In March 2012, the experiment came to an end. At an event surrounded by family and friends, Kjerstin Gruys finally looked at her own reflection.

“I had a little ambivalence, and at the same time, pleasure, because I was happy with what I saw,” she said.

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